Days without turning off site blockers: 11 I saw a pair of swans today. Almost missed them actually, they blended so well into the snowy field.

Days without turning off site blockers: 9 Finally well enough to get back to logging. Illness + no phone to self medicate + isolation = disaster. I realised that I am depressed & burnt out, so I went and got some (free) help.

I spent last night until daybreak whimpering about everything from the state of the world to the bruised part of my back from coughing (I'm sick) to how ugly I am. I told my family for the hundreth time that I'm not doing well. This time, I pointedly expressed that I was unhappy. "Unhappy" isn't enough of a word to...

Days without turning off site blockers: 5 Man (still) down! Nothing of note has happened, I've been letting my mind wander all day so here's a list of my favourite professors: PhD student who is either constantly sleep deprived or high Hard-ass, extremely cultured Ukrainian lady Mischievous guy who can read minds

Days without turning off site blockers: 4 Day 10 already! ... And I'm coming down with something. I don't know how bad it will be, but hopefully not bad enough that I won't be able to log. I've just been puttering along and listening to this song on loop on my mp3 player. My mp3 player. I got it for $20 on Aliexpress.

Days without turning off site blockers: 3 I'm a little under the weather, but I pulled through, and I finished my mitts!

Days without turning off site blockers: 2 Doing a digital detox feels futile if there is nothing occupying my mind. I had a good day today, the detox part is actually happening. But it still feels like I am waiting for the day to be over so I can hop online. Having the TV on or using my mp3 player soothes the...

Days without turning off site blockers: 1 Took a long, long walk and felt a lot better. Also went to the library to take out three books. Reading is very calming for me. It also helps me be more comfortable with being bored & letting my mind wander.

Days without turning off site blockers: 0 Slept better last night. First half of the day was riddled with anxiety and brain fog. Wanted to go out on the down, but it was a holiday ergo, no transit. Journaling helped lift the fog. I realise I use nostalgic media to self medicate when I'm feeling down. Not sure what...

Days without turning off site blockers: 0 I'm in a slump. Today was the first 'official' day of my break and I spent most of it doing some lousy cleaning and crocheting (I finished one of my mitts!). I'm starting to think this is an issue with ups and downs in sleep & diet.

Days without turning off site blockers: 2 Trying to get used to being bored. It is harder than it sounds! Someone gifted me some navy yarn (my favourite color), so I'm using to make mitts.

I hate going to church. My main forms of protest are oversleeping (works 80% of the time), taking absurdly long to do my makeup & hair and refusing to sing. I'm not a part of a "fire and brimstone" denomination. I don't even think I would be punished for not believing in God. The horror comes from thier desire to...