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Noahie Valk
Welcome! This is where you can find my most up-to-date writings. Divided into two sections. 1) Cogito: a diary and 2) IOKTIKN: a collection of standalone essays and short stories.
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Hey man, remember when that 80s nostalgia-wave-core or whatever was really hot back in the 2010s? Like The Midnight, Timecop1983, and all that? Come on, you gotta remember those times, right? It was peak Trump I, now that I think about...
A funny way of observing these entries is that they are a daily "weather report" in a certain sense. More established readers are well aware of the patterns in my prose when I'm manic or depressed, and the themes I circle around in these...
One can be smart and disabled, you know? I remember as a teenager during the peak of Obama II how the increasing rhetoric of "invisible disability" felt like such a grotesque cop-out. Funnily enough, I used to think depression wasn't...
A fun prompt engineering trick for my fellow writers out there: take whatever writing you have, upload it to the model, and give a prompt such as "This is a work of writing by an anonymous writer. Please provide criticisms of the work."...
Man, taking that kpin yesterday really helped. Although last night, I made the mistake of drinking too much caffeine in the evening. It's a common mistake for me, especially when I am feeling waves of exhaustion and need to push through...
Hey, remember that one time you destroyed and betrayed yourself for nothing? Yeah, me neither. I needed a short break from writing since being Professionally Disabled is such busy work, you know. I had a doctor's appointment on Tuesday...
God does not want your zeal. Well, at least He doesn't want mine, anyway. No, a broken spirit and a contrite heart are just about enough, I suppose. This last weekend was nice, and I finally actually feel over my depressive episode....
Man, I'm exhausted. Last night, I spent a fair portion of the evening alone in my car in this parking lot I frequent. The spot I go to is nestled in a small corner of the strip mall. I like it because it's a bit secluded, mostly private,...
Having a gun isn't about who you shoot. I woke up this morning feeling not quite depressed anymore, glory to God. This whole week has been a bit of a slog, but I'm glad to be coming out of it at a better angle than when I started. It's...
When I get depressed, it's much easier to forget what matters, usually because of the anguish that comes from it. Sometimes there are triggers, but many times it's nothing; it's just an unpredictable facet of my life—part of my cross to...
One nice thing about being depressed is that it almost feels like I have the luxury to tell God, "No, Lord, turn your back on me. I don't need any favors." Because I'm just so tired and incapable of doing most things, it kind of feels...
I think the worst kind of writer is not just one who doesn't read, but one who doesn't go out of their way to read good writing. There are many people with blogs or publications who use writing as a means rather than an end. I cannot...
This post is a submission to this month's Bear Blog Carnival, and the theme is "An album that got you through a hard time." I don't use the Bear platform, but you can't get me to not write about something like this, okay? When certain...
I can't believe I'm this late on reading the Palantir Manifesto, which is a summary of some book Alex Karp published last year. I wasn't going to read that book anyway, and it probably would've made more sense just to post the summary...
I spent most of yesterday asleep, but my body can't keep me from the page for long. No, I'm back here again today, and I have nothing on my mind really—but I still have to write because, well, you know. Some days the flow state kicks in...