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Noahie Valk
Welcome! This is where you can find my most up-to-date writings. Divided into two sections. 1) Cogito: a diary and 2) IOKTIKN: a collection of standalone essays and short stories.
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This post is a submission to this month's Bear Blog Carnival, and the theme is "An album that got you through a hard time." I don't use the Bear platform, but you can't get me to not write about something like this, okay? When certain...
I spent most of yesterday asleep, but my body can't keep me from the page for long. No, I'm back here again today, and I have nothing on my mind really—but I still have to write because, well, you know. Some days the flow state kicks in...
I can't believe I'm this late on reading the Palantir Manifesto, which is a summary of some book Alex Karp published last year. I wasn't going to read that book anyway, and it probably would've made more sense just to post the summary...
Many things in life can seem cruel or indifferent, but that's just because we can't always recognize the greater things that lie ahead. Today I read about the life of Saint Markella, martyr of Chios. I don't know why I haven't been...
I woke up this morning pissed. I can't tell you exactly why, but the vitriol is flowing through my veins strongly today. Coupled with fatigue and what I think is another onset of a depressive episode, it's difficult to handle....
After yesterday's difficult confession, I feel somewhat spiritually hungover, weirdly enough. One thing I have trouble coming to grips with is the fact that this website, while I enjoy cataloging my life here, seems to be the only thing...
Tell the demons to go fuck themselves by living anyway. Every day is a small, but beautiful act of resistance. Divine Liturgy was great by the way, thanks for asking. I'm writing here this evening under some fatigue, but what's new? I...
The last few days have been intense, haven't they? Well, thankfully, my personal barometer is reading a bit lower today. Some days, I have a decent idea of what I want to write here and can follow a basic framework, but today is one of...
The term "digital native" is so funny to me. I was born in 1998, and while I know nothing of life before the internet, I definitely don't feel "native" to it in the way those stupid sociologists like to describe. Honestly, I feel like...
Nobody gives a shit how many words you've written. Are they any good? Do they do their job? Quick, someone tell me a line I wrote five months ago. If anyone has put their work into an LLM over the last few years, I'm sure they've...
To be loved or feared? I'm reminded of A Bronx Tale yet again—the scene where Calogero asks Sonny whether it's better to be feared or loved. Sonny's response: That's a good question. It's nice to be both, but that's very difficult. If I...
Information is pretty overrated, isn't it? In so many ways, it feels like we're really just going around in circles, and the sense of novelty feels more dangerous to me than anything. I keep circling things in my head, and it's basically...
Your browser does not support the audio element. After a brief wait, I have finally released the first of TNT. This was a fun project, and while some of the transitions were a bit hacked together, there's a few in there that are...
I think I need to start doing less shit. Even less than what I've already been doing—can you believe that? I had to surrender Arthur to the shelter yesterday, so that was a hard day. Somehow I made it through to the next morning, weirdly...
Most salesmen are thieves who steal with their tongues. It doesn't matter if you're a billionaire or some homeless schizophrenic; everyone lives hand-to-mouth. The true act of discernment lies in understanding what hand is feeding you,...