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Noahie Valk
Welcome! This is where you can find my most up-to-date writings. Divided into two sections. 1) Cogito: a diary and 2) IOKTIKN: a collection of standalone essays and short stories.
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A series of scribbles from my many notebooks. 1 The tenant jostles his keys. The landlord must have changed the locks again. He goes to the landlord’s door to ask why he keeps changing the locks. His rent is always paid, first of the...
I broke my fast last night. There were about ten leftover chicken tenders from dinner a few nights ago, and I ate all of them. Thankfully I didn't eat anything else after that, but I don't feel too bad about breaking the fast. Honestly,...
I've decided to make my sprints here an hour long now, but even when they were at 45 minutes, I tended to go toward a certain word count instead of writing the whole way through the timer. Usually, I'd end up getting to that desired word...
Today is day four of my fast. I'm officially under 300 pounds. This is basically a water fast. I'm allowing myself to drink water, coffee, and diet soda; I'm also letting myself chew gum and eat a few hard candies throughout the day....
Never underestimate time alone. It's a weird thing when I'm alone. Sometimes I think I might actually have autism because when I am actually alone, I can really let the wiggles out and all other kinds of silly little behaviors. I was...
It's Holy Friday, and I intend on going to my parish's service tonight. One of the subdeacons was saying that it's supposed to have some of the most beautiful music the church sings all year, so I'm excited for it. I haven't attended any...
It has been about a week of no cigs and no porn. Go me! While the time apart from those things is irrelevant, I am more optimistic about this attempt at abstinence. Especially regarding the pornography, I'd be having all kinds of...
I, like many Christians, have been having a tough time loving my enemies. I mean this not just in relation to my car crash earlier this week, but in most facets of life. The real essence of the law is to try and not get angry in an...
I got in a fucking car crash yesterday. I'm doing okay. I'm not severely injured, but my right toes are a bit messed up and I'm somewhat bruised. Other than that, I'm alright. My car got totaled. I was on my way to the gym and my whole...
Palm Sunday was good yesterday, thanks for asking. Getting through the Divine Liturgies has been easier. My feet still hurt, but not as much. I'm usually quite drained afterward, and instead of chatting around at the coffee hour, I just...
This morning, I felt emboldened to make more effort toward my spiritual life. Last night, I ran out of cigarettes, and I decided that now would be the perfect time to quit again. With the weather heating up again soon, I would rather not...
Yesterday was quite tiring. I was asleep for practically the entire day. That kind of thing happens whenever I take my olanzapine, which is what I did the night before yesterday. That night, I had slept from 5 PM till about midnight....
I was listening to Ye's newest album Bully earlier this morning, and it was good. The standout track for me was "Mama's Favorite." Ye had a wonderful relationship with his mom, and the part at the end of the track where she tells him...
There's been a certain gloominess I can't shake, but despite that, I feel calm. I don't know exactly where it's coming from. I'm not sure how well I'd be able to think my way out of it. It seems like life really has just become a regimen...
Divine Liturgy was pretty good yesterday, thanks for asking. Even though it's only been about 48 hours since my last entry, it feels like it's been much longer. It really has gotten to a point where my life is so enmeshed with this...