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Noahie Valk
Welcome! This is where you can find my most up-to-date writings. Divided into two sections. 1) Cogito: a diary and 2) IOKTIKN: a collection of standalone essays and short stories.
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I've finally added back skincare to my morning routine. A good facial cleanser and SPF moisturizer really does go a long way, man. My forehead feels as smooth as my brain, lemme tell ya. I have some stupid errands to run today, and...
Actually achieving your dreams is kind of whack, honestly. I usually don't write here on Sundays since I already have the link log posted, but whatever. I've been thinking about people who really went out there, did their thing, failed a...
Your browser does not support the video tag. My friend Mateusz sent me this video of a Zen priest comparing David Foster Wallace to Zen Buddhism. He doesn't really get too deep into analysis with DFW, and mostly uses Infinite Jest as a...
I had a long nap this afternoon, and ran a bunch of errands this morning. It's been a dull day, but a day nonetheless. I've been having to take my antipsychotics more frequently. When there's a night I feel like I know I'll be up for a...
I hate how my brain doesn't play nice. I was having a rough afternoon yesterday after dealing with all that car stuff, and thankfully over the evening I was able to get a loaner from my folks until I secure funds for a new vehicle. Today...
Your browser does not support the video tag. I'm writing this entry in the evening because I had to take a nap after receiving some more shitty news about my car. They want like $9,000 for an engine, so that means I basically just have...
There have been many times where I have faced a situation and didn't act. I'll have that gut feeling, and it'll tell me that I need to say this or do that, but I decided not to. It's tough to put that up against times where I've acted...
You know, writing is a lot better at ending wars than starting them. I think about great treaties, speeches, and art that takes us out of the horrors we can find ourselves taking part in—whether that be in our personal lives or from...
Your browser does not support the video tag. I'm really good at having bad ideas. Wait, hear me out for a second. I think I am wired to be a fast, almost zany thinker. There's less a problem with losing attention than with losing...
Carpe diem, amirite ladies? You know, even when I look at pictures of people who are now dead and wonder if they'd actually be telling me to seize the day—there's this small inclination I have to call bullshit, or at the very least...
You don't know what you have unless you can give it away. I've felt a wave of inspiration recently, and I'm watching it go away in real time. It's such a sad and beautiful thing, these ephemeral impulses. I think you felt it too, and...
I've been thrown the fuck off. I am feeling formulaic, creatively destitute. No matter; these things are part of it all, and in my mind's eye—a small glimmer of light will shine and show me the way. Do you ever feel like when things are...
A simple realization I somehow didn't arrive at until just now: this project is self-imposed art therapy. I remember my time in therapeutic spaces—hospitalization programs, treatment centers—and how art therapy was a basic fixture:...
This one's gonna be a bit dark, so don't read further if that's not what you can handle right now. My uncle shot himself in the head a few nights ago. He took his .22 and put it just underneath his chin and pulled the trigger. The bullet...
Man, novelty sucks. I think I feel this way because whenever something new gets introduced in my life, I get so into it for a little while, and then once the dust settles, it just gets tossed into the proverbial dumpster. For me,...