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Noahie Valk
Welcome! This is where you can find my most up-to-date writings. Divided into two sections. 1) Cogito: a diary and 2) IOKTIKN: a collection of standalone essays and short stories.
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I've been feeling better from my flu, but not fully. It makes writing here an even tougher task, but I know that once I get the ball rolling, I'll finish out just fine. Even with the embedded routines, workflows, and whatever else, the...
Late Friday evening, I caught the flu. I've been sick as a dog ever since. Yesterday, I slept for the entire day. While asleep, I kept cycling through different nightmares and thought patterns. Most of the time, I couldn't even tell I...
I started a new project last night. I plan on releasing it later today. My life has been a series of these vignettes since I started Cogito. I feel myself continuing to refine the process here. There's more consideration for coherence...
Over the last day or so, I've noticed a major increase in my mood. Most would interpret that to mean I’m feeling happier, but for me, it’s a different sensation. Instead of using more abstract descriptors like “happy” or “sad,” I find a...
Life has been good, but there’s still so much looming in the background. I’ve been starting to feel a lull in my ability to write these entries. If anything, I think it’s just doubt creeping in. My thought on writing has still been the...
Sin surrounds me, but God is greater. I've been using my prayer rope more intensely, in spite of certain vices coming back into my life. I'm on my third pack of cigarettes now. I've been succumbing to lustful tendencies. As I've...
I skipped Divine Liturgy—again—because I slept in until noon. This whole week, I've been waking up late, going to bed late, and it's really been throwing me off. I know it's because my sleep apnea is forcing sleep debt. It makes my heart...
Happy Valentine's Day, everyone! Right now I am sitting at a cafe. I had dinner, some coffee, and I'm now finally getting to writing today. Earlier, I attended Great Vespers at my local parish. It was a particularly wonderful service. I...
My heart has been beating so fast lately. I feel it pounding constantly. I've been drinking too much coffee lately. I've gotten to the point now where I have caffeine all day, even at night. I can still fall asleep okay, but now, when I...
I have a backup of my blog and link log on GitHub now if that's relevant to anyone. There's this constant fear of complacency. If I'm not seeking, finding faults in things, improving—I feel like I'm failing. Or worse: I feel like I'm...
There have been a number of things swimming around my mind today, so I hope to get them across the best way I can. Last night, I had a relaxing time at the pool in my gym. I found a spot where I could comfortably lounge in the pool, and...
I skipped Divine Liturgy yesterday because, when I woke up, I was too tired to get ready and decided to fall back asleep until noon. Over the last several days, I've been sleeping rougher—waking up several times throughout the night,...
I feel like shit today. I've been having too much caffeine—going through four cups of coffee a day at this point. It's not good. Generally, I just feel off for a variety of reasons. There's been a bit of a collapse in my routines. Over...
Don't get a donut today. All Marty has to do is make a single sale by the end of the day. If he doesn't, he'll be buying himself a one-way ticket to the Unemployment Office. He has been walking this neighborhood for almost two weeks now....
I'm becoming worried. I keep relapsing into using pornography. The despair is marching its way back into my life. I am losing motivation to pray for deliverance because I feel so ashamed and alone. It's as if I can't learn from grace; I...