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Noahie Valk
Welcome! This is where you can find my most up-to-date writings. Divided into two sections. 1) Cogito: a diary and 2) IOKTIKN: a collection of standalone essays and short stories.
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It's Holy Friday, and I intend on going to my parish's service tonight. One of the subdeacons was saying that it's supposed to have some of the most beautiful music the church sings all year, so I'm excited for it. I haven't attended any...
It has been about a week of no cigs and no porn. Go me! While the time apart from those things is irrelevant, I am more optimistic about this attempt at abstinence. Especially regarding the pornography, I'd be having all kinds of...
I, like many Christians, have been having a tough time loving my enemies. I mean this not just in relation to my car crash earlier this week, but in most facets of life. The real essence of the law is to try and not get angry in an...
I got in a fucking car crash yesterday. I'm doing okay. I'm not severely injured, but my right toes are a bit messed up and I'm somewhat bruised. Other than that, I'm alright. My car got totaled. I was on my way to the gym and my whole...
Palm Sunday was good yesterday, thanks for asking. Getting through the Divine Liturgies has been easier. My feet still hurt, but not as much. I'm usually quite drained afterward, and instead of chatting around at the coffee hour, I just...
This morning, I felt emboldened to make more effort toward my spiritual life. Last night, I ran out of cigarettes, and I decided that now would be the perfect time to quit again. With the weather heating up again soon, I would rather not...
Yesterday was quite tiring. I was asleep for practically the entire day. That kind of thing happens whenever I take my olanzapine, which is what I did the night before yesterday. That night, I had slept from 5 PM till about midnight....
I was listening to Ye's newest album Bully earlier this morning, and it was good. The standout track for me was "Mama's Favorite." Ye had a wonderful relationship with his mom, and the part at the end of the track where she tells him...
There's been a certain gloominess I can't shake, but despite that, I feel calm. I don't know exactly where it's coming from. I'm not sure how well I'd be able to think my way out of it. It seems like life really has just become a regimen...
Divine Liturgy was pretty good yesterday, thanks for asking. Even though it's only been about 48 hours since my last entry, it feels like it's been much longer. It really has gotten to a point where my life is so enmeshed with this...
It could always be worse. I had a great day at the gym yesterday. My workouts have been getting easier on me. I'm not too sore at all today, and I've been lifting heavier with every workout. When I first started, I could barely lift much...
I might be hitting a wall. This project has helped me so much in learning how to write, develop routines, and instill a sense of stability in my life that I haven't felt in a long time. I am so grateful to those of you who keep coming...
This morning, I've been thinking about my past, particularly the crossroads I found myself at when graduating high school. During my senior year, many of my classmates were rampantly applying to dozens of different universities. Many...
Today has been slightly annoying. We've been having some problems with our refrigerator, and yesterday, we had a guy come out and "fix" it. He ended up being here for most of the day, but all he did was use one of our credit cards to...
I've been having a few different threads of thought over the last 24 hours or so; lots of theses swirling around in my head. I want to try and combine all of them into a single cohesive piece, as is my writerly instinct. I also decided...