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Noahie Valk
Welcome! This is where you can find my most up-to-date writings. Divided into two sections. 1) Cogito: a diary and 2) IOKTIKN: a collection of standalone essays and short stories.
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This morning has been mundane like any other, but the spiritual battles I fight still constantly rage within me like some kind of muted tempest. My emotions are quite volatile, and working through them has been a difficult task. Through...
It has been a week on NoFap; praise God! I've struggled with lust for a long time, but I finally feel that I have been given grace from this sin. My prayer life has only become richer over the course of this week, and for that I am...
Prayer continues to be a great source of personal fulfillment. More than that, I've come to a deeper understanding of how to use prayer to ward off demons. This video was an important piece of instruction for me. I watched it for the...
I was reading a post from Ran Prieur about being able to tell the difference between AI- and human-made images. It's been tougher for me to think about because the newest models from Google, OpenAI, and the like can produce extremely...
This winter storm has been interesting enough, although I think they messed up naming it "Fern." That's just silly. Thankfully, here in North Texas, we haven't had any major issues. The power has been on this whole time, which is amazing...
This morning, while I was making breakfast, my dad was trying to put a nicotine pouch on my sister because he'd heard somewhere that it could help with her symptoms. While he was trying to put it on her, she screamed and cried as loud as...
This morning, I've been meditating on new beginnings. I remember a few years ago, before my first psychiatric hospitalization, learning the actual etymology of the word "apocalypse." Culturally, people conflate "apocalypse" and...
I received a comment on my guestbook saying I complain too much. At first, I tried justifying it to myself. I tried telling myself, "Well, you know, I do a Chicken Noodle Soup for the Soul—type thing and find silver linings," but then I...
I'm looking for some new books to read or listen to. If you have a suggestion, send me an email and I'll be happy to consider it. CW: SEXUAL CONTENT I talked about it in my New Year's entry and feel that it's necessary for me to bring it...
Last night was tough, but I got through it. I had thoughts of relapse and felt trapped in my own skin, but I got through it all the same. I feel better about including good habits into my life, but there are still many urges to return to...
When I start my timer to write these entries, a small fear likes to return. I'll sit down and start writing, but then realize that I have nothing to say. I'll realize it, the timer will keep going, and then it'll stop. I'll see the...
Divine Liturgy was great today, thanks for asking. I feel like today has been a good day, despite the fact that I'm coming here to write in the evening as opposed to the morning. Most days, I have a strong routine. I wake up, take care...
Today has been a tiring day. I'm too tired to even write, but I still feel the need to drag myself to my computer and get my words in. There's this sense that I can come here and start to figure myself out, my feelings, and what exactly...
I've been a casual user of the Melonland forum for a while now. I first made an account back when I launched this site in February of last year. Melon has done a great job running his forum. His art and software projects are always a...
A milestone: today is the first day I set my sprint timer to thirty minutes. I am excited to see how this goes. The longer these sprints get, the longer these entries should get in theory. However, I don't know if I want the entries to...