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Noahie Valk
Welcome! This is where you can find my most up-to-date writings. Divided into two sections. 1) Cogito: a diary and 2) IOKTIKN: a collection of standalone essays and short stories.
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It's Halloween, but today is not about corporate-laden holiday mumbo-jumbo. No, today is a day just like any other, except it isn't. I am currently writing this entry at 4 AM, freshly pulling through an all-nighter because I have to...
I've gotten to a point now where I feel weird when I don't make a Cogito post for the day. It makes my life feel incomplete, which is strange considering the nature of this body of work. The ideas expressed here are meant to feel...
My anxiety attacks have been getting worse and more frequent lately. I'm not sure why. My body is getting more and more exhausted from the constant heart racing and sweating and tension. After an attack, the level of exhaustion is...
It's Sunday afternoon and as the clouds drift in the sky and the weather cools down for the season, I can't help but still feel like every day is more of the same. My family who was visiting left for the airport a few hours ago, and I'm...
Today's been a long day. I have some family visiting over the weekend and once they arrived in the afternoon, we spent some time hanging out, grabbing dinner, walking around, and eating ice cream. They've been up since very early in the...
Over the last several years, I have come to dislike and distrust most film media. New or old, hot or trash, so much of it is garbage to me. My experience with this has come mostly as a trauma response from psychotic episodes. It's hard...
I feel like a pot of boiling water that has just a bit too much water in it. If I don't turn the heat down a bit, I'll start leaking out the pot and make the fire heating me blow up. But there is no turning down the heat, unless I go out...
I spent most of today sleeping. I feel as if I've been crashing and burning a bit, so I decided to sleep for most of today so that I could try and restore myself as much as I could. Yet the urge to keep the streak persisted and here I...
CW: Contains references to suicidal thoughts and self-harm I had another meltdown today, my third one in about two weeks. This time it was caused by a technological kerfuffle: my sister (she has an intellectual disability and autism)...
I'm starting off today's entry a little bit later than normal (for me, anyway) because I had some family come by and visit (hey to y'all if you're reading!) and before that was answering some messages. But here I am again, ready to write...
Last night I started feeling depressed and felt that way this morning too. When I woke up, I didn't even want to take on the day and decided to fall back asleep. A few hours later I wake up again and I feel less horrible, but I still...
this is a rewrite of a piece originally posted on my Substack on January 15th, 2025. The Lie of Wealth It's good to have material things. The more we have, the happier we are—or so the narrative goes. New technologies generate...
This morning I find myself thinking yet again about the illusion of scarcity. It's difficult to dispel to others what exactly this means. How is scarcity an illusion? Isn't it clear that there's not enough to go around? Many see scarcity...
I woke up late today after a long night, so getting into the groove of my day has been rather slow. But here I am, writing to my ephemeral audience yet again. I've appreciated the messages I've been getting on my guestbook and I hope...
I've recently been listening to a bunch of really awesome DJ sets. I listened to that new Skrillex album and not a single track misses. For my workouts, I find that I can put on a new DJ set and listen to it the whole way through while...