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Noahie Valk
Welcome! This is where you can find my most up-to-date writings. Divided into two sections. 1) Cogito: a diary and 2) IOKTIKN: a collection of standalone essays and short stories.
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Over the last several years, I have come to dislike and distrust most film media. New or old, hot or trash, so much of it is garbage to me. My experience with this has come mostly as a trauma response from psychotic episodes. It's hard...
I feel like a pot of boiling water that has just a bit too much water in it. If I don't turn the heat down a bit, I'll start leaking out the pot and make the fire heating me blow up. But there is no turning down the heat, unless I go out...
I spent most of today sleeping. I feel as if I've been crashing and burning a bit, so I decided to sleep for most of today so that I could try and restore myself as much as I could. Yet the urge to keep the streak persisted and here I...
CW: Contains references to suicidal thoughts and self-harm I had another meltdown today, my third one in about two weeks. This time it was caused by a technological kerfuffle: my sister (she has an intellectual disability and autism)...
I'm starting off today's entry a little bit later than normal (for me, anyway) because I had some family come by and visit (hey to y'all if you're reading!) and before that was answering some messages. But here I am again, ready to write...
Last night I started feeling depressed and felt that way this morning too. When I woke up, I didn't even want to take on the day and decided to fall back asleep. A few hours later I wake up again and I feel less horrible, but I still...
This morning I find myself thinking yet again about the illusion of scarcity. It's difficult to dispel to others what exactly this means. How is scarcity an illusion? Isn't it clear that there's not enough to go around? Many see scarcity...
this is a rewrite of a piece originally posted on my Substack on January 15th, 2025. The Lie of Wealth It's good to have material things. The more we have, the happier we are—or so the narrative goes. New technologies generate...
I woke up late today after a long night, so getting into the groove of my day has been rather slow. But here I am, writing to my ephemeral audience yet again. I've appreciated the messages I've been getting on my guestbook and I hope...
I've recently been listening to a bunch of really awesome DJ sets. I listened to that new Skrillex album and not a single track misses. For my workouts, I find that I can put on a new DJ set and listen to it the whole way through while...
I come before you again, asking not for alms or recognition, but presence and grace. It's been a good time so far, but today I feel rather tired and somewhat, uh, loopy I would say. Something that's been pissing me off: I type on my...
Last night was a weird one. I was having a hard time falling asleep as usual, so I decided to take a little cocktail of prescription medications that have historically calmed me down in the past. The cocktail worked after two hours of...
I've recently been enthralled by the growing trend of pseudonymous writers. These pseudonymous writers give lofty justifications for their pseudonymity, such as the fact that they have the 'freedom' to say what's truly on their mind or...
Today has been a tiring day. The reason? It was a lack of caffeine all day. I took a long nap and had another one of my strange lucid dreams. I remember being in a neighborhood at night. There was some kind of chasing thing going on. My...
It is FRIDAY morning as of writing this post. I've got KNON Now playing as the background music for today, and after having one of those Reign energy drinks, I'm feeling good and ready to shoot some shit off the top of the proverbial...