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Noahie Valk
Welcome! This is where you can find my most up-to-date writings. Divided into two sections. 1) Cogito: a diary and 2) IOKTIKN: a collection of standalone essays and short stories.
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I have been feeling particularly blessed lately; this directly coincides with a recent change in my prayer life. Since I reconverted in late 2023, I have tried to establish a consistent prayer life. Through discovering Eastern Orthodox...
CHECK OUT MY LINK LOG I couldn't write yesterday, which was horrible. The problem was that over the last two days, I've been trying to fix an issue with the blog's codebase. Well, it wasn't so much an issue as it was an attempt to...
Today, I had a medical evaluation for my SSDI benefits. I've been in the application process since December 2023. I was initially denied, but that's a common circumstance. Currently, I'm in the appeals process for my case, and am waiting...
Since yesterday afternoon, I have been tired and sleeping a lot. I fell asleep at around 3 PM yesterday and woke up at around 9 PM. I had some dinner, hung out for a while, and went back to bed at around midnight. This morning, I was...
I had another meltdown yesterday. It's been about a month or two since my last one, and they never get easier to deal with. I hate it when I hit myself and bite myself. All the electricity in my body puts my nervous system into...
This morning has been mundane like any other, but the spiritual battles I fight still constantly rage within me like some kind of muted tempest. My emotions are quite volatile, and working through them has been a difficult task. Through...
It has been a week on NoFap; praise God! I've struggled with lust for a long time, but I finally feel that I have been given grace from this sin. My prayer life has only become richer over the course of this week, and for that I am...
Prayer continues to be a great source of personal fulfillment. More than that, I've come to a deeper understanding of how to use prayer to ward off demons. This video was an important piece of instruction for me. I watched it for the...
I was reading a post from Ran Prieur about being able to tell the difference between AI- and human-made images. It's been tougher for me to think about because the newest models from Google, OpenAI, and the like can produce extremely...
This winter storm has been interesting enough, although I think they messed up naming it "Fern." That's just silly. Thankfully, here in North Texas, we haven't had any major issues. The power has been on this whole time, which is amazing...
This morning, while I was making breakfast, my dad was trying to put a nicotine pouch on my sister because he'd heard somewhere that it could help with her symptoms. While he was trying to put it on her, she screamed and cried as loud as...
This morning, I've been meditating on new beginnings. I remember a few years ago, before my first psychiatric hospitalization, learning the actual etymology of the word "apocalypse." Culturally, people conflate "apocalypse" and...
I received a comment on my guestbook saying I complain too much. At first, I tried justifying it to myself. I tried telling myself, "Well, you know, I do a Chicken Noodle Soup for the Soul—type thing and find silver linings," but then I...
I'm looking for some new books to read or listen to. If you have a suggestion, send me an email and I'll be happy to consider it. CW: SEXUAL CONTENT I talked about it in my New Year's entry and feel that it's necessary for me to bring it...
Last night was tough, but I got through it. I had thoughts of relapse and felt trapped in my own skin, but I got through it all the same. I feel better about including good habits into my life, but there are still many urges to return to...